It really amazes me that people take what you say the wrong way.
I posted something on Facebook a comment to a friend of mine (very dear friend) and one of his friends took it so much the wrong way. Unbelievable!!! That person thinks just because he knew my friend longer than I he knew him better. He also thought for some reason or another I was making a big thing out of nothing.
How far from the truth was he I can not even imagine. All I said was life passes us by quicker than we realize and that person took it totally out of context. Sad for him. Life goes by so fast we don't even realize it.
I would like to think that I am still in my late 20's or early 30's but the fact of the matter is, I am not, I'm in my late 50's. HOW did that happen I wonder, how did I get to have such a large number in my age when I still feel like I should at least be in my 30's.
So: I'm wanting to start life over again, go with gusto and all that. And I wonder how did my number get to be bigger than I thought it should be. I'm thinking I'm a whole lot younger than what I am.
I have a son in his late 30's as people would say and I feel like I'm still in my 30's!!!
IMAGINE THAT!!!!!!!!! Oh well folks imagine that.
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Happy New Year and may it be prosperous!!!!
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Saturday, December 31, 2011
Letter to a friend
so what's up? You haven't been here (facebook) for awhile. do you still hate me. Sorry for being so cruel, but that's just what I was going through at the time. You know I love you, and I thought we were friends. I really thought that we could go off on each other once in awhile with the understanding that it was ok and we would talk about what was said. Guess you didn't see it that way. I was really hoping that you would talk to me and ask me why I said the things I said, but you didn't.
I was really disappointed that you didn't challenge what I said to you so few months ago. Really disappointed that you didn't come back to me regarding anything I said to you. My goodness friend (or so I thought) we always went back and forth with our opinions, thoughts, feelings, etc. We have always worked them out. WHY NOT THIS TIME???????
Were you that much offended that you couldn't contact me and tell me off??????? Did I hurt you that much, that you couldn't let me know. I sure as hell would've let you know, well as of a matter of fact I did let you know how much you hurt me.
I Just want to know; why haven't you called or emailed me to bless me out, yell at me or whatever. I know I said some harse things to you, I know I was gruell: however that is no reason not to respond. I do apologize for being so cruell and unforgiving at the time however you have got to realize what I was going through at the time.
Not having an income, being evicted, moving in with my sister then moving to another state to give my mother full time care, now looking for employment, etc.
Unless or untill you've been through what I went through you will never know the emotions.
I ask for your forgiveness in what I said to you and you know I was harsh, however you need to understand I was hurting and I was hurting beyond what I knew hurting was. I have never ever known such pain as to watch my mother die and give up her last breath.
She died at home with her children around her and her older sister who happens to be the only one left of her siblings.
I hurt and I'm confused as to why you no longer want to keep in touch with me. You for some reason haven't wanted to keep in touch with me since before I left the burgh and I don't know why.
I understand that you are in a relationship, I have never had a problem with that, however you still could've called me back occasionally! But you chose not to! Why I do not know!
I'm hoping that you forgive me for anything that I've done wrong to you as I forgive you. Just remember this if you forgive so will you be forgivin, if you don't then you won't.
I love and miss you and hope our friendship can be renewed.
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I was really disappointed that you didn't challenge what I said to you so few months ago. Really disappointed that you didn't come back to me regarding anything I said to you. My goodness friend (or so I thought) we always went back and forth with our opinions, thoughts, feelings, etc. We have always worked them out. WHY NOT THIS TIME???????
Were you that much offended that you couldn't contact me and tell me off??????? Did I hurt you that much, that you couldn't let me know. I sure as hell would've let you know, well as of a matter of fact I did let you know how much you hurt me.
I Just want to know; why haven't you called or emailed me to bless me out, yell at me or whatever. I know I said some harse things to you, I know I was gruell: however that is no reason not to respond. I do apologize for being so cruell and unforgiving at the time however you have got to realize what I was going through at the time.
Not having an income, being evicted, moving in with my sister then moving to another state to give my mother full time care, now looking for employment, etc.
Unless or untill you've been through what I went through you will never know the emotions.
I ask for your forgiveness in what I said to you and you know I was harsh, however you need to understand I was hurting and I was hurting beyond what I knew hurting was. I have never ever known such pain as to watch my mother die and give up her last breath.
She died at home with her children around her and her older sister who happens to be the only one left of her siblings.
I hurt and I'm confused as to why you no longer want to keep in touch with me. You for some reason haven't wanted to keep in touch with me since before I left the burgh and I don't know why.
I understand that you are in a relationship, I have never had a problem with that, however you still could've called me back occasionally! But you chose not to! Why I do not know!
I'm hoping that you forgive me for anything that I've done wrong to you as I forgive you. Just remember this if you forgive so will you be forgivin, if you don't then you won't.
I love and miss you and hope our friendship can be renewed.
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Friday, December 30, 2011
Remember Awesome Times
Just remembering some great times here. So I'm not sure if I'm going to list them or reflect on them. My only hope is that you remember some great or awesome times in your life. Hope that you will share.
This comes from a post I receive from my niece and remembering the time we spent together at the book store. We chatted a bit and she was working on an assignment from school and I was checking emails. She apologized for working on what she needed to to me but I understood. I told her don't worry about it do what you need to do. I was just enjoying her company.
She went back to work on her assignment and was concerned about what was going on with me. I assured her I was okay, alright, don't worry that we are not talking at this time, do what you need to do: I'm OK! When you are done then we will talk, I'm just enjoying being with you and both of us doing what we need to do.
I had a bunch of emails to check out and she had an assignment that was due: so we both worked quietly for awhile. It was awesome! After we were done she bought us both another cup of coffee and we sat and chatted for a bit. We got to know each other a little bit more. That is an awesome thing.
My niece is such an awesome person. She befriended me when she didn't have to. She could have said to her mother my sister: why are you doing this: why are you taking her in what has she done for you: WHAT are you crazy????????
NO!!! SHE did not do any of those or say any of those things, she was loving, forgiving, helpful, and kind. She was an angel that God sent to me and spent time with me when she didn't wasn't required to. She took an interest in me and wanted to get to know me just a little bit better.
OH! What a wonderful time I had with her. I just hope to get to know her more.
Remember the great and awesome times in you life. If you think they are not important, just think about it: they are important. REMEMBER THE SMALL THINGS!!! They are important, because they are huge!!!
This comes from a post I receive from my niece and remembering the time we spent together at the book store. We chatted a bit and she was working on an assignment from school and I was checking emails. She apologized for working on what she needed to to me but I understood. I told her don't worry about it do what you need to do. I was just enjoying her company.
She went back to work on her assignment and was concerned about what was going on with me. I assured her I was okay, alright, don't worry that we are not talking at this time, do what you need to do: I'm OK! When you are done then we will talk, I'm just enjoying being with you and both of us doing what we need to do.
I had a bunch of emails to check out and she had an assignment that was due: so we both worked quietly for awhile. It was awesome! After we were done she bought us both another cup of coffee and we sat and chatted for a bit. We got to know each other a little bit more. That is an awesome thing.
My niece is such an awesome person. She befriended me when she didn't have to. She could have said to her mother my sister: why are you doing this: why are you taking her in what has she done for you: WHAT are you crazy????????
NO!!! SHE did not do any of those or say any of those things, she was loving, forgiving, helpful, and kind. She was an angel that God sent to me and spent time with me when she didn't wasn't required to. She took an interest in me and wanted to get to know me just a little bit better.
OH! What a wonderful time I had with her. I just hope to get to know her more.
Remember the great and awesome times in you life. If you think they are not important, just think about it: they are important. REMEMBER THE SMALL THINGS!!! They are important, because they are huge!!!
Thursday, December 15, 2011
New Year Resolutions.
Do you make them? New year resolutions? If so why do you? Why not make goals instead?
Here's something I wrote in a comment to someone that asked that question.
Here's something I wrote in a comment to someone that asked that question.
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Who are we?
We wonder and wonder who we are. Do we really know??? I don't know!
57 yrs on this earth and I'm still trying to figure out who and what I'm about. As much as I would really like to get close to someone, at the same time I don't want anyone to get close to me.
To open up and be vulnerable is really too scary for me. I don't think I want anyone to know me that much. However sometimes I wish there was someone that knew me that much.
How in the world do you get so close to someone like that. You have to totally trust them with your life, with all you deepest darkest secrets, your dreams, nightmares, hopes, etc.
Who and how can you ever , ever trust with that????????
We all have dark secrets that we want no one to know!!! If you think you don't think of something you don't want your parents to know, or you spouse, or your kid, how about your friends.
We all have secrets!!!! PERIOD THE END!!!!!!!!!!! WE ALL HAVE SECRET!!!! that we don't want someone else to know. Whether it be one person or many persons, we all have secrets that we keep to ourselves.
One of mine is I don't want anyone to know I've been>>>>>>>>>>not going to finish, however I saved a sister from being???????????????? .
thoughts are welcome and I will not answer about the above, use your imagination, and you might be correct, or not, who know.
Again thoughts are welcomed.
57 yrs on this earth and I'm still trying to figure out who and what I'm about. As much as I would really like to get close to someone, at the same time I don't want anyone to get close to me.
To open up and be vulnerable is really too scary for me. I don't think I want anyone to know me that much. However sometimes I wish there was someone that knew me that much.
How in the world do you get so close to someone like that. You have to totally trust them with your life, with all you deepest darkest secrets, your dreams, nightmares, hopes, etc.
Who and how can you ever , ever trust with that????????
We all have dark secrets that we want no one to know!!! If you think you don't think of something you don't want your parents to know, or you spouse, or your kid, how about your friends.
We all have secrets!!!! PERIOD THE END!!!!!!!!!!! WE ALL HAVE SECRET!!!! that we don't want someone else to know. Whether it be one person or many persons, we all have secrets that we keep to ourselves.
One of mine is I don't want anyone to know I've been>>>>>>>>>>not going to finish, however I saved a sister from being???????????????? .
thoughts are welcome and I will not answer about the above, use your imagination, and you might be correct, or not, who know.
Again thoughts are welcomed.
Warm weather.
Well I moved to Fl a few months ago from the burgh (Pgh., PA) and I am so used to cold weather this time of year. Today it was about 70??? Well that needs to be getting used to, it doesn't even feel like Christmas is on the horizon. It feel like spring or fall, not sure which. Guess I forgot it doesn't get cold here like up north.
I lived in St. Augustine, FL several years ago (over 20). I was there for about 15 yrs., and got used to the southern weather, however I moved back north and got used to the winters per sey and wondered why I moved back. Well beside the point: loving the warmth and working on finding a job.
Well there you have it folks, my thoughts for the time being. I may post more later, but that remains to be seen.
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Good Day and God Bless!
I lived in St. Augustine, FL several years ago (over 20). I was there for about 15 yrs., and got used to the southern weather, however I moved back north and got used to the winters per sey and wondered why I moved back. Well beside the point: loving the warmth and working on finding a job.
Well there you have it folks, my thoughts for the time being. I may post more later, but that remains to be seen.
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Good Day and God Bless!
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Looking for Mom
OK Mom,
I'm waiting for you to come home, however I know you never will because you went to be with our Lord. However I'm still waiting because it seems like you shouldn't be gone. When are you going to come home? That is my question!!! When am I truly going to realize you are not coming back here.
I don't want you to be gone, I want you to be here. I want to take care of you. You left way, way too soon.
I wanted you to be cured and whole. I was really, really hoping that you would be cured of your cancer and that we would be roommates per say. I would find a job (full time, part tune) and pay you rent. I was so willing to do that and to take care of you.
However that wasn't to be! I am so, so, so sad about that!
I wanted to get to know you better, I wanted to learn from you. Even though I have told you several times that I love you, I wanted to show you that! I really don't know if I've showed you that or not the short time we had together. I'm still waiting for you to come home, I miss you so much and wish we had talked more.
Where are you Mom? Why aren't you here?! We had such a short, short time together; I thought it would be longer than a couple of months. I came here in the month of June and you departed this life in early September. I was totally not expecting that. I was really hoping that you would be here a lot longer.
I must say Mom I miss you tremendously and for right now I'm still looking for you to come home, because I'm here on vacation and you needed to go to work and do what you need to do. So I'm here at your house waiting for you to come home and I'm making dinner for us. Come home Mom so we can have dinner together.
I love and miss you Mom and I am so happy that you are no longer in pain and that you are with our Lord.
However I'm still waiting for you to come home. I miss you so very very much.
Love,
Julia
I'm waiting for you to come home, however I know you never will because you went to be with our Lord. However I'm still waiting because it seems like you shouldn't be gone. When are you going to come home? That is my question!!! When am I truly going to realize you are not coming back here.
I don't want you to be gone, I want you to be here. I want to take care of you. You left way, way too soon.
I wanted you to be cured and whole. I was really, really hoping that you would be cured of your cancer and that we would be roommates per say. I would find a job (full time, part tune) and pay you rent. I was so willing to do that and to take care of you.
However that wasn't to be! I am so, so, so sad about that!
I wanted to get to know you better, I wanted to learn from you. Even though I have told you several times that I love you, I wanted to show you that! I really don't know if I've showed you that or not the short time we had together. I'm still waiting for you to come home, I miss you so much and wish we had talked more.
Where are you Mom? Why aren't you here?! We had such a short, short time together; I thought it would be longer than a couple of months. I came here in the month of June and you departed this life in early September. I was totally not expecting that. I was really hoping that you would be here a lot longer.
I must say Mom I miss you tremendously and for right now I'm still looking for you to come home, because I'm here on vacation and you needed to go to work and do what you need to do. So I'm here at your house waiting for you to come home and I'm making dinner for us. Come home Mom so we can have dinner together.
I love and miss you Mom and I am so happy that you are no longer in pain and that you are with our Lord.
However I'm still waiting for you to come home. I miss you so very very much.
Love,
Julia
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