Sunday, March 18, 2012

A day out.

My sisters and I went to a place called McRae's.  There were having dragon boat races.  These boats were really long with a dragon head at the front and a tail at the back.  It was fun to watch.

We meant a few interesting people there.   A man named Denny joined us at our table and this guy was a hoot.  He had us laughing so hard.  He would just make up the most bizarre this and strike up a small conversation with anyone that passed by.

He calls himself my old man friend, then tries to hook me up with some guy named Mike who wore a big green & white stripped hat. (well it was St. Patricks day)  There were several people there all decked out for St. Patty's day.   We had a good time.  I've posted some photos on my photo blog

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Where did this come from?

I have blood on my fore finger and thumb,  I do not know where it came from.  The blood on my thumb came from my fore finger, but where did the blood on my finger come from????

I do not know, I must have cut it somehow and do not remember or scrapped it.  Who knows, I do not!!!

Well I cleaned the blood off my thumb and finger and saw a cut on my fore finger.  Imagine that!!!   Really don't know how it got there other than playing with the dog and maybe his tooth cut me.

Well that's all for tonight.

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Saturday, March 10, 2012

Where

I'm not sure where this post belongs, here or in heaven's grocery store.
However here goes.

Why do I question everything?  including God.  I wonder where He is and why he doesn't help me or give me guidance.  why does my life seem to be a nightmare, why does it seem to be a dream.   Why is it a hallucination, why can't I seem to get a grip on it any more.   I really, really don't know what happened to me.

I'm lost and confused and I don't know where to go or what to do.  I have lost  my ambition, my drive, my sense of adventure.   I want it back and I don't know how to find it.

I want God back in my life and although I believe I found him over 35 yrs. ago,  I wonder.  I wonder, I wonder and I still wonder, where is He, who is He and why can't I get back in touch with Him.

I'm searching, searching, looking, questioning, praying and still I can't seem to find God nor get his help!!!!!!   Where are you God, why do I feel like you don't care.   Somewhere in my brain I know you do!   Somewhere in my brain I know you love me.

It's my heart that I'm concerned about!!!!   I don't feel you in my heart and I want to! I don't know why I don't feel you in my heart.  Why aren't you  there???

Maybe I'm just confused.  I just wish I knew what to do.  God I feel lost and confused and I know you are not the god of confusion.  I know you give a lot of verses about that but they do not seem to be helping right now.

I'm just wondering right now where are you now!!!!!!!!!!  Why can't I hear you????
I want to hear you, I want to know what to do, I want to know how to start or do or whatever?.  I need to know,  I do not like this feeling of being lost and confused and being alone. (I know God I am not alone but that's how I feel)

I'm not good at speaking things out loud and I know I should according to your word.  I guess that is something I need to work on because I know there is power in the tongue or word spoken.

I just need your help God a small merical or something, guidance, direction.  Something.  I'm not asking for a lot God, I'm just asking for direction, that's all, please give me some direction.