Mother's Day

Well this is the first year that I won't be able to send my mother flowers and a card, or call her.   Every year on Mother's day I would either send her a card, flowers, or call her.   This year I can't do that for she has passed away. 

It is so difficult to loose your Mom, especially when you are the one that has been chosen to be the care giver.   Oh God Mom how I miss you and wish I had done better by you.

Loosing your mother is a very difficult thing.  Now I am along with my sisters we are the matriarch (We are now orphans) of our family's.

Mother's day is next Sunday.  I really don't know how I'm going to handle it.  

I feel the need to call a florist and order flowers, also the need to look for or write a mother's day card and send them to her.   She is no longer here!!!   I miss her dearly.   I want her back, whole and unscathed, no cancer, no pain, no anything.   I miss her so.

Well life goes on and she wouldn't want me to fret, but I do anyway and wish I didn't.

Mom I love you and miss you, what can I say: no more mother day cards, no more flowers to send.    However you and dad are in my heart always.

I miss you and love you both and I know we will meet again.