We wonder and wonder who we are. Do we really know??? I don't know!
57 yrs on this earth and I'm still trying to figure out who and what I'm about. As much as I would really like to get close to someone, at the same time I don't want anyone to get close to me.
To open up and be vulnerable is really too scary for me. I don't think I want anyone to know me that much. However sometimes I wish there was someone that knew me that much.
How in the world do you get so close to someone like that. You have to totally trust them with your life, with all you deepest darkest secrets, your dreams, nightmares, hopes, etc.
Who and how can you ever , ever trust with that????????
We all have dark secrets that we want no one to know!!! If you think you don't think of something you don't want your parents to know, or you spouse, or your kid, how about your friends.
We all have secrets!!!! PERIOD THE END!!!!!!!!!!! WE ALL HAVE SECRET!!!! that we don't want someone else to know. Whether it be one person or many persons, we all have secrets that we keep to ourselves.
One of mine is I don't want anyone to know I've been>>>>>>>>>>not going to finish, however I saved a sister from being???????????????? .
thoughts are welcome and I will not answer about the above, use your imagination, and you might be correct, or not, who know.
Again thoughts are welcomed.
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Thursday, December 15, 2011
Warm weather.
Well I moved to Fl a few months ago from the burgh (Pgh., PA) and I am so used to cold weather this time of year. Today it was about 70??? Well that needs to be getting used to, it doesn't even feel like Christmas is on the horizon. It feel like spring or fall, not sure which. Guess I forgot it doesn't get cold here like up north.
I lived in St. Augustine, FL several years ago (over 20). I was there for about 15 yrs., and got used to the southern weather, however I moved back north and got used to the winters per sey and wondered why I moved back. Well beside the point: loving the warmth and working on finding a job.
Well there you have it folks, my thoughts for the time being. I may post more later, but that remains to be seen.
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Good Day and God Bless!
I lived in St. Augustine, FL several years ago (over 20). I was there for about 15 yrs., and got used to the southern weather, however I moved back north and got used to the winters per sey and wondered why I moved back. Well beside the point: loving the warmth and working on finding a job.
Well there you have it folks, my thoughts for the time being. I may post more later, but that remains to be seen.
Comments are always welcome. Why not follow me to see what I post next.
Good Day and God Bless!
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Looking for Mom
OK Mom,
I'm waiting for you to come home, however I know you never will because you went to be with our Lord. However I'm still waiting because it seems like you shouldn't be gone. When are you going to come home? That is my question!!! When am I truly going to realize you are not coming back here.
I don't want you to be gone, I want you to be here. I want to take care of you. You left way, way too soon.
I wanted you to be cured and whole. I was really, really hoping that you would be cured of your cancer and that we would be roommates per say. I would find a job (full time, part tune) and pay you rent. I was so willing to do that and to take care of you.
However that wasn't to be! I am so, so, so sad about that!
I wanted to get to know you better, I wanted to learn from you. Even though I have told you several times that I love you, I wanted to show you that! I really don't know if I've showed you that or not the short time we had together. I'm still waiting for you to come home, I miss you so much and wish we had talked more.
Where are you Mom? Why aren't you here?! We had such a short, short time together; I thought it would be longer than a couple of months. I came here in the month of June and you departed this life in early September. I was totally not expecting that. I was really hoping that you would be here a lot longer.
I must say Mom I miss you tremendously and for right now I'm still looking for you to come home, because I'm here on vacation and you needed to go to work and do what you need to do. So I'm here at your house waiting for you to come home and I'm making dinner for us. Come home Mom so we can have dinner together.
I love and miss you Mom and I am so happy that you are no longer in pain and that you are with our Lord.
However I'm still waiting for you to come home. I miss you so very very much.
Love,
Julia
I'm waiting for you to come home, however I know you never will because you went to be with our Lord. However I'm still waiting because it seems like you shouldn't be gone. When are you going to come home? That is my question!!! When am I truly going to realize you are not coming back here.
I don't want you to be gone, I want you to be here. I want to take care of you. You left way, way too soon.
I wanted you to be cured and whole. I was really, really hoping that you would be cured of your cancer and that we would be roommates per say. I would find a job (full time, part tune) and pay you rent. I was so willing to do that and to take care of you.
However that wasn't to be! I am so, so, so sad about that!
I wanted to get to know you better, I wanted to learn from you. Even though I have told you several times that I love you, I wanted to show you that! I really don't know if I've showed you that or not the short time we had together. I'm still waiting for you to come home, I miss you so much and wish we had talked more.
Where are you Mom? Why aren't you here?! We had such a short, short time together; I thought it would be longer than a couple of months. I came here in the month of June and you departed this life in early September. I was totally not expecting that. I was really hoping that you would be here a lot longer.
I must say Mom I miss you tremendously and for right now I'm still looking for you to come home, because I'm here on vacation and you needed to go to work and do what you need to do. So I'm here at your house waiting for you to come home and I'm making dinner for us. Come home Mom so we can have dinner together.
I love and miss you Mom and I am so happy that you are no longer in pain and that you are with our Lord.
However I'm still waiting for you to come home. I miss you so very very much.
Love,
Julia
Monday, November 21, 2011
Dog and what not
It really irritatesw me that people cannot control their animals. If you had only started training them from day one that you got them and let know that you are boss or head of the pack they will listen to you. They are no human the are animals understand that.
I know you consider them family as we all do, but for goodness sake realize you need to take controll. If you want to treat them as a family member, then realize that you have to raise them as a newborn from then on and do not feel like you are hurting their feelings.
If you are letting a dog taking control of your life their is something seriously wrong with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU need to take control and not let your kids or yourself be in danger not matter how big or SMALL the dog is.
It's a dog for crying out loud, if it's being mean and out of control you need to control it and learn for yourself you are not hurting it by making it obey you!!!!!!!!!!!! Get a grip people, you are suppose to keep the beast under control.
I know you consider them family as we all do, but for goodness sake realize you need to take controll. If you want to treat them as a family member, then realize that you have to raise them as a newborn from then on and do not feel like you are hurting their feelings.
If you are letting a dog taking control of your life their is something seriously wrong with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU need to take control and not let your kids or yourself be in danger not matter how big or SMALL the dog is.
It's a dog for crying out loud, if it's being mean and out of control you need to control it and learn for yourself you are not hurting it by making it obey you!!!!!!!!!!!! Get a grip people, you are suppose to keep the beast under control.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
A recipe: Imagine that.
Oh folks I don't normally share a recipe that I've made up, but it turned out really good, so I thought I would share.
I had a pork steak that I wanted something different with so I coated it with potato chips. I dipped it in an egg and milk mixture then coated it with wise potato chips, bake it at 350 for about and hour. I could not believe how tender it was and how good it tasted.
I had some french fries with it however pick your own side dishes. I am still astonished as to how tender it was and how good it tasted. Just thought I'd share.
OOO so good (well at least I thought so).
I had a pork steak that I wanted something different with so I coated it with potato chips. I dipped it in an egg and milk mixture then coated it with wise potato chips, bake it at 350 for about and hour. I could not believe how tender it was and how good it tasted.
I had some french fries with it however pick your own side dishes. I am still astonished as to how tender it was and how good it tasted. Just thought I'd share.
OOO so good (well at least I thought so).
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Thoughts for tonight
Well I was just wondering: If you live alone and died tonight how long would it be till someone found you dead. I'm just guessing here but it may be 1-7 days for someone to check on me and find my body, or it maybe longer. I really don't know.
The fact of the matter is, I moved to FL to take care of my mother on a full time basis, which I was very much glad to do. I really enjoyed my time with her and I miss her greatly. I'm living in her house and trying to make it my own and I am doing pretty at the progress of this, however it will take time, but sitting here tonight the thought above came into mind. For what reason I do not know. However my question is to all of you that live alone; "If you died tonight how long would it be till someone found out about it." Like I said above it might be 1-7 days, if I was still in the burgh it might be longer, I really don't know.
I'm not a person that keeps in touch with anyone, why I don't know. I try to occasionally keep in touch with family. I called my Mom at least once a month, sometimes more, but now she's gone, so I cannot call her anymore. My siblings, well maybe once a year or so. Too bad for me.
The one I was most in touch with was the one that called me the most because she always wanted to keep in touch. I must say I have called my siblings however sometimes it has been to no avail, other times not. Oh well that's neither here nor there.
It is now and I need to learn how to keep in touch. How about you??? Do you need to keep in touch or get reacquainted with family members???
I have always kept in touch with my son and my mother. I have occassionally tried to contact my siblings (I have 5 siblings) however since we don't live in the state (or didn't at the time and their phone # changed frequently it was difficult) I couldn't always keep in touch.
I must say always keeping in contact with Mom I knew what was going on with my siblings and their kids. That was a blessing to me. Now I'm wondering, alot of wondering going on here.
Mom is gone so I can no longer get updates and I wonder did everyone else get updates from her?! Who wll take her place to give updates: and did they only listen because it was her that gave them, did they care, did they pray. I don't know.
One thing I do know is that someone has to keep up with everyone, however also I do know that what ever is said to anyone cannot be repeated to anyone else in the family, for they are relying on the person they told it to, they said it in confindence.
However it is my feeling if it's told in confidence and it's a problem: prayer is needed so it can be shared without exposing the person or the problem because God knows.
Well as I said isn't it sad that no one know??? Does any one care. Just thoughts for tonight!!!!
The fact of the matter is, I moved to FL to take care of my mother on a full time basis, which I was very much glad to do. I really enjoyed my time with her and I miss her greatly. I'm living in her house and trying to make it my own and I am doing pretty at the progress of this, however it will take time, but sitting here tonight the thought above came into mind. For what reason I do not know. However my question is to all of you that live alone; "If you died tonight how long would it be till someone found out about it." Like I said above it might be 1-7 days, if I was still in the burgh it might be longer, I really don't know.
I'm not a person that keeps in touch with anyone, why I don't know. I try to occasionally keep in touch with family. I called my Mom at least once a month, sometimes more, but now she's gone, so I cannot call her anymore. My siblings, well maybe once a year or so. Too bad for me.
The one I was most in touch with was the one that called me the most because she always wanted to keep in touch. I must say I have called my siblings however sometimes it has been to no avail, other times not. Oh well that's neither here nor there.
It is now and I need to learn how to keep in touch. How about you??? Do you need to keep in touch or get reacquainted with family members???
I have always kept in touch with my son and my mother. I have occassionally tried to contact my siblings (I have 5 siblings) however since we don't live in the state (or didn't at the time and their phone # changed frequently it was difficult) I couldn't always keep in touch.
I must say always keeping in contact with Mom I knew what was going on with my siblings and their kids. That was a blessing to me. Now I'm wondering, alot of wondering going on here.
Mom is gone so I can no longer get updates and I wonder did everyone else get updates from her?! Who wll take her place to give updates: and did they only listen because it was her that gave them, did they care, did they pray. I don't know.
One thing I do know is that someone has to keep up with everyone, however also I do know that what ever is said to anyone cannot be repeated to anyone else in the family, for they are relying on the person they told it to, they said it in confindence.
However it is my feeling if it's told in confidence and it's a problem: prayer is needed so it can be shared without exposing the person or the problem because God knows.
Well as I said isn't it sad that no one know??? Does any one care. Just thoughts for tonight!!!!
Sunday, October 23, 2011
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