Warm weather.

Well I moved to Fl a few months ago from the burgh (Pgh., PA) and I am so used to cold weather this time of year.  Today it was about 70???   Well that needs to be getting used to, it doesn't even feel like Christmas is on the horizon.   It feel like spring or fall, not sure which.  Guess I forgot it doesn't get cold here like up north.

I lived in St. Augustine, FL several years ago (over 20).  I was there for about 15 yrs., and got used to the southern weather, however I moved back north and got used to the winters per sey and wondered why I moved back.  Well beside the point: loving the warmth and working on finding a job.

Well there you have it folks, my thoughts for the time being.   I may post more later, but that remains to be seen.

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Good Day and God Bless!

Looking for Mom

OK Mom,

 I'm waiting for you to come home, however I know you never will because you went to be with our Lord.   However I'm still waiting because it seems like you shouldn't be gone.   When are you going to come home?  That is my question!!!    When am I truly going to realize you are not coming back here.  

I don't want you to be gone, I want you to be here.  I want to take care of you.  You left way, way too soon.
I wanted you to be cured and whole.   I was really, really hoping that you would be cured of your cancer and that  we would be roommates per say.  I would find a job (full time, part tune) and pay you rent.  I was so willing to do that and to take care of you.

However that wasn't to be!  I am so, so, so sad about that!

I wanted to get to know you better, I wanted to learn from you.  Even though I have told you several times that I love you, I wanted to show you that!  I really don't know if I've showed you that or not the short time we had together.      I'm still waiting for you to come home, I miss you so much and wish we had talked more.

Where are you Mom?  Why aren't you here?!  We had such a short, short time together;  I thought it would be longer than a couple of months.   I came here in the month of June and you departed this life in early September.  I was totally not expecting that.   I was really hoping that you would be here a lot longer.

I must say Mom I miss you tremendously and for right now I'm still looking for you to come home, because I'm here on vacation and you needed to go to work and do what you need to do.   So I'm here at your house waiting for you to come home and I'm making dinner for us.   Come home Mom so we can have dinner together.

I love and miss you Mom and I am so happy that you are no longer in pain and that you are with our Lord.
However I'm still waiting for you to come home.   I miss you so very very much.

Love,
Julia

Here am I with my thoughts

I'm cold, tired and done. Oh also confused. Well maybe I should'nt be. I'm just feeling a bit out of it right now and undirectional. If that makes any sense to anybody. Also a bit overwhelmed right now. Oh well I know I'll get over it. Any suggestions would be great!!!

I'm tired and don't know what to do.  My faith seems to be failing me, and I often wonder where is God.  I will never quit believing for what else do I have.  Nothing!

However I just can't help but wonder is He there and does He care.  I know deep within He does care, but why oh why do I feel like I've been deserted.   Maybe it's because I've desereted Him or maybe I just got placid.  I do not know.

The only thing I know right now is I'm feeling a bit lost and confused and just a little bit lonely.       I'm just trying to figure the whole thing out (what ever that may be)

What am I suppose to be doing, what is my direction, what is my life's purpose.   I do not know right now and that frustrates me.   I'm sure God will let me know.   In the meantime: oh I don't even know.

I have bills that need paid, obilgations to me meant and so on and so on.   OOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Life can be so frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Well all I can do now is just keep plugging along and do my best and try to figure out what it is that I'm suppose to do with my life.   Pray to God everyday and wait for the answer.

I know sometimes He gives an answer thru other people so if you have a comment or suggestion that would be awsome.

Thanks for reading.
Julia