A Poem: Author My Son!

I really find it hard to believe that this is still around and that I still have it.
The following is a poem that my son wrote way, way back when.  We were still living in Florida at the time and he was very young when he wrote it.  I just thought I'd share it with all of you, however remember it is copy righted, so please do not copy without permission.

LOVE

LOVE IS LIKE A BIRD
FREE AND FULL OF SONG

LOVE IS LIKE A FLOWER
IT CAN GROW TO BE BEAUTIFUL
BUT IF NOT CARED FOR IT WILL WILT AND DIE

LOVE IS LIKE A BABY
INOSENT AND FRAGILE

BUT THE BEST LOVE OF ALL
IS TO BE IN LOVE WITH YOU

 copyrighted by Julia West


BY:  MICHAEL WEST.   circa 1980 or somewhere there about.

Everybody Loves.

Everybody loves a lot of different people.  They don't love some more than others, the love is just different for each one.  You love your parents, your children, your friends etc.  You love them all the same, however the love you have for each one is different for each one.

The love you have for your parents includes respect, honor and trust, for your children it's nurturing, discipline, and play time.  You love your son for being your son, and your daughter for being your daughter, not one more than the other, just different for they are different.

 For each one of your friends, it's different for each one, some you go out and have a good time with, some you share your secrets with, some you are able to talk with on just about anything.  If you are in a relationship do not expect that person to love you the same way they did with someone they were with previously, it will not happen.  It doesn't mean that they love you any less or more, it means the love they have for you is different because you are a different person.  The love they have for you is for you alone, so why would you want them to love you the way they have loved someone else.  If they did that love would not be solely yours.

It is not a good idea to wish that someone love you the way they loved someone else, because if they loved you like that, they would be thinking of the other person and wanting to be with them.  Love and be loved with the uniqueness for each individual that comes into your life.  Do not try to love someone the way you loved someone else it will never work.

Always remember that everyone is different and unique and therefor we all love everyone in our lives in a different and unique way, not more not less, just different.

Letter to a friend

so what's up?  You haven't been here (facebook) for awhile. do you still hate me.  Sorry for being so cruel, but that's just what I was going through at the time.  You know I love you, and I thought we were friends.  I really thought that we could go off on each other once in awhile with the understanding that it was ok and we would talk about what was said.   Guess you didn't see it that way.  I was really hoping that you would talk to me and ask me why I said the things I said, but you didn't.

I was really disappointed that you didn't challenge what I said to you so few months ago.  Really disappointed that you didn't come back to me regarding anything I said to you.  My goodness friend (or so I thought) we always went back and forth with our opinions, thoughts, feelings, etc.  We have always worked them out.  WHY NOT THIS TIME???????
Were you that much offended that you couldn't contact me and tell me off???????   Did I hurt you that much, that you couldn't let me know.  I sure as hell would've let you know, well as of a matter of fact I did let you know how much you hurt me.

I Just want to know; why haven't you called or emailed me to bless me out, yell at me or whatever.  I know I said some harse things to you, I know I was gruell: however that is no reason not to respond.  I do apologize for being so cruell and unforgiving at the time however you have got to realize what I was going through at the time.

Not having an income, being evicted, moving in with my sister then moving to another state to give my mother full time care, now looking for employment, etc.

Unless or untill you've been through what I went through you will never know the emotions.
I ask for your forgiveness in what I said to you and you know I was harsh, however you need to understand I was hurting and I was hurting beyond what I knew hurting was.   I have never ever known such pain as to watch my mother die and give up her last breath.

She died at home with her children around her and her older sister who happens to be the only one left of her siblings.
I hurt and I'm confused as to why you no longer want to keep in touch with me.  You for some reason haven't wanted to keep in touch with me since before I left the burgh and I don't know why.

I understand that you are in a relationship, I have never had a problem with that, however you still could've called me back occasionally!  But you chose not to!   Why I do not know!

I'm hoping that you forgive me for anything that I've done wrong to you as I forgive you.  Just remember this if you forgive so will you be forgivin,  if you don't then you won't.

I love and miss you and hope our friendship can be renewed.






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Looking for Mom

OK Mom,

 I'm waiting for you to come home, however I know you never will because you went to be with our Lord.   However I'm still waiting because it seems like you shouldn't be gone.   When are you going to come home?  That is my question!!!    When am I truly going to realize you are not coming back here.  

I don't want you to be gone, I want you to be here.  I want to take care of you.  You left way, way too soon.
I wanted you to be cured and whole.   I was really, really hoping that you would be cured of your cancer and that  we would be roommates per say.  I would find a job (full time, part tune) and pay you rent.  I was so willing to do that and to take care of you.

However that wasn't to be!  I am so, so, so sad about that!

I wanted to get to know you better, I wanted to learn from you.  Even though I have told you several times that I love you, I wanted to show you that!  I really don't know if I've showed you that or not the short time we had together.      I'm still waiting for you to come home, I miss you so much and wish we had talked more.

Where are you Mom?  Why aren't you here?!  We had such a short, short time together;  I thought it would be longer than a couple of months.   I came here in the month of June and you departed this life in early September.  I was totally not expecting that.   I was really hoping that you would be here a lot longer.

I must say Mom I miss you tremendously and for right now I'm still looking for you to come home, because I'm here on vacation and you needed to go to work and do what you need to do.   So I'm here at your house waiting for you to come home and I'm making dinner for us.   Come home Mom so we can have dinner together.

I love and miss you Mom and I am so happy that you are no longer in pain and that you are with our Lord.
However I'm still waiting for you to come home.   I miss you so very very much.

Love,
Julia

Thoughts for tonight

Well I was just wondering:  If you live alone and died tonight how long would it be till someone found you dead.   I'm just guessing here but it may be 1-7 days for someone to check on me and find my body, or it maybe longer.  I really don't know.

The fact of the matter is, I moved to FL to take care of my mother on a full time basis, which I was very much glad to do.  I really enjoyed my time with her and I miss her greatly.   I'm living in her house and trying to make it my own and I am doing pretty at the progress of this, however it will take time, but sitting here tonight the thought above came into mind.  For what reason I do not know.   However my question is to all of you that live alone;  "If you died tonight how long would it be till someone found out about it."   Like I said above it might be 1-7 days, if I was still in the burgh it might be longer, I really don't know.

I'm not a person that keeps in touch with anyone, why I don't know.  I try to occasionally keep in touch with family.  I called my Mom at least once a month, sometimes more, but now she's gone, so I cannot call her anymore.   My siblings, well maybe once a year or so.  Too bad for me.  

The one I was most in touch with was the one that called me the most because she always wanted to keep in touch.    I must say I have called my siblings however sometimes it has been to no avail, other times not.   Oh well that's neither here nor there.

It is now and I need to learn how to keep in touch.    How about you???  Do you need to keep in touch or get reacquainted with family members???

I have always kept in touch with my son and my mother.  I have occassionally tried to contact my siblings (I have 5 siblings) however since we don't live in the state (or didn't at the time and their phone # changed frequently it was difficult) I couldn't always keep in touch.

I must say always keeping in contact with Mom I knew what was going on with my siblings and their kids.  That was a blessing to me.    Now I'm wondering, alot of wondering going on here.

Mom is gone so I can no longer get updates and I wonder did everyone else get updates from her?!    Who wll take her place to give updates: and did they only listen because it was her that gave them, did they care, did they pray.    I don't know.

One thing I do know is that someone has to keep up with everyone, however also I do know that what ever is said to anyone cannot be repeated to anyone else in the family, for they are relying on the person they told it to, they said it in confindence.

However it is my feeling if it's told in confidence and it's a problem: prayer is needed so it can be shared without exposing the person or the problem because God knows.

Well as I said isn't it sad that no one know???  Does any one care.    Just thoughts for tonight!!!!

Here am I with my thoughts

I'm cold, tired and done. Oh also confused. Well maybe I should'nt be. I'm just feeling a bit out of it right now and undirectional. If that makes any sense to anybody. Also a bit overwhelmed right now. Oh well I know I'll get over it. Any suggestions would be great!!!

I'm tired and don't know what to do.  My faith seems to be failing me, and I often wonder where is God.  I will never quit believing for what else do I have.  Nothing!

However I just can't help but wonder is He there and does He care.  I know deep within He does care, but why oh why do I feel like I've been deserted.   Maybe it's because I've desereted Him or maybe I just got placid.  I do not know.

The only thing I know right now is I'm feeling a bit lost and confused and just a little bit lonely.       I'm just trying to figure the whole thing out (what ever that may be)

What am I suppose to be doing, what is my direction, what is my life's purpose.   I do not know right now and that frustrates me.   I'm sure God will let me know.   In the meantime: oh I don't even know.

I have bills that need paid, obilgations to me meant and so on and so on.   OOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Life can be so frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Well all I can do now is just keep plugging along and do my best and try to figure out what it is that I'm suppose to do with my life.   Pray to God everyday and wait for the answer.

I know sometimes He gives an answer thru other people so if you have a comment or suggestion that would be awsome.

Thanks for reading.
Julia

Life goes on.

June 22

To Dad

Hello again folks,

Obviously I'm in the mood for writing today.   Well this is something that I wrote over 10 yrs ago when my daddy died.  Unfortunately I couldn't find the final version, I know it's here somewhere.  With that being said I hope you enjoy the poem that I wrote.     Well here we go, and as always comment are greatly appreciated.

 My Poem for Daddy,    (Life goes on)

 Sitting here feeling the cold autumn wind blow through my hair. it sends a chill down my spine as I look over the lake and listen to the quiet around me.  The setting sun, intense rays, reflect boldly off the water’s surface.  It is blinding but the warmth is soothing.

 The lake is full of Mallards and an occasional seagull flies by.  I sit quietly and listen as I gaze upon the trees that surround the lake with their brilliant colors of autumn.   Scarlett, burning orange, glowing yellow, while shades of amber, copper & pale orange peek through.  The dark forest green of the fir trees give a soft touch to the brilliance that surrounds them.

 I gaze at the beauty that surrounds me with all its brilliance and know that in just a short while it will all be gone.  Soon the trees will be bare and the gray appearance of death will take over except for the few evergreens that stand by and weep for their loss.

 I sit and listen; I can hear the trees weep.  They thought the others would always be with them, but the time had come for the older trees to depart.

 The evergreens watched in wonder as the others started to change from their luscious green to the brilliant colors of yellow, red, orange, shades of amber, gold and a hint of gray.  Never knowing what it meant, nor understanding, for they were always green.  This was new to them.

 Then another change began to take place, this change frightened the evergreens for among their own kind when the leaves turned brown and started to tall it meant certain death.  Death and sorrow now surrounded them.  This was something that few had ever seen.  They were at a loss as to what to do, how could they help, how could they stop it.  There was nothing that could be done and they bowed their heads in sorrow.

 All the trees were now bare and the color of grey ash, they had gone to sleep for the winter.  The evergreens did not know and they wept.  They wept tears of sorrow and of joy.  Sad they lost their fellow trees and for the love of the new ones. And that they were no longer suffering the pains of winter.  For they realized that in dying there is new life: a life full of wonder and great expectations.  Life just waiting to be lived and enjoyed no matter what happens.  ©

 Enjoy your day and live life to the fullest as we all should or at least strive to.

Whose your hero.

 I just wanted to share this with you.  It's something I wrote awhile ago regarding my Mom.

 My hero is my mother; she has always been an inspiration to me. She was the one person in the neighborhood that was willing to give the shirt off her back to help someone. She never turned anyone away that was in need. She was always there for whoever needed her. I wish I was more like her!

 I remember one time our house caught on fire (I was very young at the time).  How scary is that!  Well to make a long story short, the fire was put out and we were not displaced.   However none of our neighbors came to help.  It was a cold wintry night and we (my sisters and brothers)  were sitting in a car with no heat and blankets wrapped around us.   I could see the neighbors peaking out their windows wanting to know what was going on.   Did any of them help or bring us in out of the cold???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!     NO they did not!!!!!!!   

 Imagine that!.

 The one that would've helped could not as her house was also in danger of exploding for it was a gas leak and her house was up close to ours, she did however make sure we (the kids) had enough blankets to keep us warm.  I noticed that she glanced up at the neighbors peering out their windows in discuss.

 Moving forward

 Well, just a block over from us there was another fire!!!!!!     HHHHMMMMM!   Do ya think anyone went over??????????

WELL GUESS what!! My MOM did!!!!  She walked down to see what she could do to help.    She offered coffee, hot chocolate, tea, to the firefighters (who said weren't we just at your place?) and offered a place to stay for the folks whose place was on fire.

Yes the firefighters were just at our place and yes they were amazed that my mother was there to help, because no one, absolutely no one was there to help mom or her family.

 Regardless of that my mother was there to give assistance anyway she could, no matter what.  She didn't care that no one came to help her and her family, she didn't hold a grudge nor did she judge. 

  Mom always did what was right, honest, truthful and everything else good.  No questions asked, she did what needed to be done and was always there if anyone, I REPEAT anyone needed her.  It didn't matter to her if they were friend or foe, if you needed help, she was always there!!!!!!!!!!!

I really don't know how she did it, but she did.  She was always there for family, friends and foes.

IMAGINE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 I want to be that person, who has no discriminations, what so ever! And loves no matter what!

 I love you MOM!!!!!!!!!!!     You are the sunshine, rainbow and strength of my life.   Thank you for everything

 I hope you enjoyed reading this true life event. ©   All items posted are copy write so you may not use them without permission.